About Me

Hello and Welcome...

To get you started, a little background of who I am, and why I have chose to share with you my inner most thoughts....

I am a wife, mother, sister and very reliable friend. After all, I am a cancer. The most loyal of all the zodiac signs.  Family means the most to me and my friends, I treat friends as though they are family. As I have gotten older I have come to this realization,  it is not the quantity of friends that one has so much as it is the quality of the friends you do have.

I have struggled in life from different "jobs" but recently have found my "it" career. I am extremely new at my current company. So with that being said... I am struggling to figure out the people in my office that are "real" and those that are "fake"I work for a fortune 500 company as a marketing manager. It is very rewarding,  "I love making my clients happy" but on the flip side, people can be difficult and coworkers can be down right cruel. As an open, caring person... this can get overwhelming at times but I have really started to find my niche in learning to "check it at the door" or better yet... "its business not personal" have become two of my favorite sayings to help with the stress.
It seems to help.

So that gives you a little insight of who... but now for the why....

Everyday of my life I would talk to my mom. Unfortunately, four years ago I lost her to cancer. Struggling to deal with her loss while still trying to be a mom to my children has become very hard at times. I want to be selfish and not share my children or my husband with anyone, for fear of loosing them. I have built walls around our family for protection. I have found myself alienating distant family and long time friends as a defense mechanism. It is easier to walk away than it is to loose that person. I have been finding that keeping all of my opinions and thoughts to myself are not healthy either. But it can be so hard to trust. Therefore, I am hoping that by jumping into the blog world, I will find other like minded people that share in the same life experiences as me. Someone that is looking for all the positives in life and not focusing on the negative. I want to experience the happiness and take the negative out of my thoughts and lock them away.... Thus my blog name. A Thought Deposit.

Ali...